Dying vs Living

[AnthroHeart]

The first time in a while since I was pondering that, just this night at like 1:12 am my alarm clock came onto static for the first time ever. I have never set it.
Then I was in the kitchen and when I left it, a box fell off a counter onto the floor. I only heard it. I didn't go back and see.

I think it was the other side contacting me. But I don't know who.

My left ear felt like water was draining from it, and it was itchy, so I had to get up again. It felt and sounded like a bug was in it. But it's not all the time, so I don't think so.

I think I was carrying too much Light. It started to be uncomfortable.

I need a way to decrease my amount of Light without going dark.

I don't want to advance any more spiritually right now.

I was asking yesterday evening for my higher self to take me home. It didn't have to be right away.
But I don't want to leave just to get back at people who annoy me.

When the alarm clock turned on by itself to static, I thought I had already died. I wasn't thrilled, but I wasn't scared either.