Dying vs Living

[AnthroHeart]

They say you can die by losing the will to live.

Why does dying feel better, or more satisfying than living?

I'm not suicidal, but I feel so much satisfaction from just letting go
and not caring what happens to me.

Maybe if I start to be in pain then I'll care.

I carry out disagreements in my head.

I feel controlled.

And I feel solace out of dying. Not out of depression,
but just cause it feels better than trying to hold on and keep going each day.

I don't know if I want to die. But I won't take my life. I don't hate myself like that.

It is just so relaxing when I think of returning home.

Unless by wanting to die, that means you'll automatically repeat 3D.

I find some peace with not trying so hard to live.

I don't know what I'm supposed to think.