Shadow Work vs. Grounding

[Glow]

Passion, basically. I wamt my passion back.

And Im having a hard time reconcilling it with love right now.


Take my friend who friend dumped ,e for example. I love her, but the passions dead and has been dead for a long while if Im being honest. About the only times i feel passionate about her are when Im feeling negative. And a piece of me wants to incite yhe same levels of passin in her just to kill it like she did, but the loving part of me says "No"

necause I love her, I wont do that, but I feel robbed almost. Whatever. ill find new passions. A new woman to be passionate about who is at least just as amazing, and more s*** to focus on.

And no soo er do I say that than does my DJ friend respond to ,y link I sent of this Roland drum machine I sent him so he could take his DJing to the next level. And then I remember wanting to not just PLAY music, but TEACH it. I wanted to set people free and unleash their creativity. I think if I become a great musician first, I can make people follow me...

Might that be my purpose? Might that be what my higher self wantsme to do?

I think Im seeing how ot all comes together now...

(hug) You can't speed through this. You were hurt. I doubt you started your friendship as 2 happy healthy people so baggage came into the relationship. This isn't eden we are carrying around wicked wounds all of us. The loss of each other even if they have buried it has further compounded the original wounds.

Don't make this more complicated than it is. Two wounded people gave each other shelter and love then something transpired to trigger the original wound and trust was lost, eventually by you both.

It sucks, it hurts and it isn't going to heal quickly, especially as this person obviously meant a ton to you and you to them.
Give yourself time. It alone is enough to trigger a dark night. Don't expect so much of yourself that you go through a dark night as quick as possible. That stuff is rough.

While going through it eat well, sleep well, get some exercise, and yes take vitamins if your diet is lacking in certain areas.

As to making people follow you. That isn't a soul idea.

We had gurus in the past but now is the time of self knowledge, be careful wanting others to follow you, that is a form of enslavement of ego to ego.
You are god as we all are.
We can help each other but no one is between anyone and god.
No one needs a guru, that was an idea of enslavement by organized religion.

Reach directly, and if you are going to teach, teach people to reach directly.
Power corrupts.