09-18-2018, 07:10 PM
(09-17-2018, 04:29 PM)GentleReckoning Wrote: First it was love, now it is hate. Both two sides of the same coin. Attachment.
Push, pull.
Oh well, now it's not hate. I feel like I'm getting tired of thinking about it.
And a latest wave of fear just hit because I smoked weed to help with nausea from popcorn stomache after watching a movie with my parents.
My mistake. Gave it to my fad to keep away from me.
As for this issue, I did some pretty thorough mental exercises involving forgiveness and now I feel much better about it.
Im just trying to love myself as much as I can.
I see how NOT SELF LOVING this marijuana habit is, so I'm making it so I don't have access to it...