Regarding the One Infinite Creator

[Sacred Fool]

I can feel your discomfort, KA, and I wish there were some way I could directly assist you, but your quest seems deeply personal, and deeply within your person.  I would, however, encourage you fully to continue your rambles until you find outer understanding that begins to match your inner faith.

Because of its violent history, Christianity is a religion where the confession of faith is of great importance.  Whether or not you believe that Christ was true man or true God, for example, often determined whether you were let alone or killed.  

The message of the Ra Material is rather different.  There is no compulsion to accept as axiomatic any particular ideas.  That's all a personal choice.  On the other hand, if you're seeking a framework from which to try to understand multi-dimensional reality, then the literature can be quite useful.  So, take it for what it may be worth to you.

Lastly, I might encourage you to take your time before deciding the ultimate nature of the One Creator or your own ultimate identity.  Give yourself space to allow your own inner vibrations to be known to you.  From there you can begin to consider how reality is constructed.  It all begins with silence, not with bustle and noise.