08-26-2018, 02:27 AM
First of all, it doesn't much matter what I think about all this because you've already done waaaay too much thinking for the both of us, it seems to me.
Second, here's what I think. Your mind has blurred the distinctions between your lower energy centers and this has you spinning in circles.
For example, you go to a public event and hope to end up with a private relationship. (I.e., it's a public event by a public guy who, evidently, gives generalized info to a generalized group: not a place for intimacy.) You ask a question, then take it personally when you're skipped over the next time so as, perhaps, to allow others who haven't yet been heard from to speak. (I. e., it's a public setting and taking it personally may be over-thinking it.) Then you get mixed up with a suspicious character on the internet and are disappointed when he doesn't befriend you and inquire about the pressures in your life. (As if a hustler like him could give a poop.)
The question of how much to allow parasites to devour you is apt. Are you trading off your well being (in your head) in all these situations for the sake of...........what?
I would say, for the sake of intimacy. Ergo, the last of my unimportant thoughts to you is this: sort out for yourself what intimacy is and what you think you need and how you might put yourself in the way of some that might be in your vicinity, and sort out what impersonal first chakra association is (bloodsuckers, for example) and what social connection is (participating in group endeavors) and try not to confuse one with the others, no matter how, either a parasite or your 2d/3d mind, might play you for your sincere, deeply felt need for intimacy.
PS: Knowing your feelings on this matter, and how motivated you are by it--if you concur with the model I'm offering here--puts you, believe it or not, in a useful position in this sense. It offers you a pathway inwards to explore a deep and honest part of yourself that is really looking to talk with you. Or, put another way, it offers you an important opportunity for intimacy with thyself, dear boy.
Second, here's what I think. Your mind has blurred the distinctions between your lower energy centers and this has you spinning in circles.
For example, you go to a public event and hope to end up with a private relationship. (I.e., it's a public event by a public guy who, evidently, gives generalized info to a generalized group: not a place for intimacy.) You ask a question, then take it personally when you're skipped over the next time so as, perhaps, to allow others who haven't yet been heard from to speak. (I. e., it's a public setting and taking it personally may be over-thinking it.) Then you get mixed up with a suspicious character on the internet and are disappointed when he doesn't befriend you and inquire about the pressures in your life. (As if a hustler like him could give a poop.)
The question of how much to allow parasites to devour you is apt. Are you trading off your well being (in your head) in all these situations for the sake of...........what?
I would say, for the sake of intimacy. Ergo, the last of my unimportant thoughts to you is this: sort out for yourself what intimacy is and what you think you need and how you might put yourself in the way of some that might be in your vicinity, and sort out what impersonal first chakra association is (bloodsuckers, for example) and what social connection is (participating in group endeavors) and try not to confuse one with the others, no matter how, either a parasite or your 2d/3d mind, might play you for your sincere, deeply felt need for intimacy.
PS: Knowing your feelings on this matter, and how motivated you are by it--if you concur with the model I'm offering here--puts you, believe it or not, in a useful position in this sense. It offers you a pathway inwards to explore a deep and honest part of yourself that is really looking to talk with you. Or, put another way, it offers you an important opportunity for intimacy with thyself, dear boy.
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