Ascension symptom thread

[EvolvingPhoenix]

Part of the reason I'm struggling there is because there are ways I've been treated unfairly and I have let 99%+ of it go, but my latest friendship breakup hurts because I know SO MUCH of it was my own fault

I am following "Create Yourself Create Your Life" book/practice, there're specific chapters on Give/Receive/Create forgiveness, and "find forgiveness for everything in your life".
that works to me well. feel free to try if it resonates with you, this is the book link:
https://zingdad.com/publications/books/c...-your-life

You know... I don't think it'll help.

I can't forgive them if I am unsure what to forgive them for.

I can't forgive myself if I am unsure what to forgive myself for.

Everything I DO know I f***** up, do what I can to be as understanding of as possible, but it's the questions I DON'T have answered that make it hard to forgive, for I am unsure what even needs forgiving. It matters. Maybe not to you or the author of the book, but it does to me. And I know none of you know a whole lot about my situation so I can't expect any of you to be able to help me.

I wanna know they were in the wrong for me to forgive before I can forgive and I want to know I was in the wrong before I can forgive.

I don't want to be "Forgiven" for doing nothing wrong. I want to be VINDICATED. And I don't want to "forgive them" for doing nothing wrong, I would rather apologize for blaming them in the first place. But only where we WEREN'T wrong.

After the questions are answered, forgiveness can be easier cause I'll be able to be sure about what I'm forgiving.

thank you for sharing this. yes, what works for me may not work for others.
1. To me, after doing above practice and realize (from both heart and mind) there's only ONE, and in the end, there's nothing to forgive. that really sets me free.

2. some articles mentioned what we released may not related with this lifetime at all, it's releasing blockage from previous lifetimes,  so we may never know what we released.
a few of my friends doing meditation, they say there's a period they are laughing or crying for several hours, after that, they feel calm. so they know they released emotion blockage, but they don't know what exactly that blockage is.

3. there's another thing, one day my back pain become so serious that even breathing hurts. so i stopped using computer, nor any electrical device, stopped surfing on internet to get information, stop discussion in all the forums, simply rest, drink a lot of water, eat a lof of fruits, as other people already suggested, i tried to do meditation, but not much, so basically whole day doing nothing on my bed. and the next day, this symptom is gone.

so i think rest, water drinking, stop eating meat, and stop using computer, and (try) stop thinking will greatly alleviate the symptom. again, this is just my experience.

thank you.

I tried to stop eating meat. It... went shitty. I thought I could do the whole "I'm a vegetarian, but I don't wanna be a dick about it, so I am willing to eat meat when I'm out with others so as to not inconvenience them" thing and... well... they made it an issue and treated me like an a****** for being mad when they publicly embarrass me about it. Because... I dunno why. Wait no, I know why. They think I'm an a****** because I'm doing something that makes THEM feel like they might be bad people or something, so they try to keep me down by making me feel like crap about it. You know what? I SHALL quit meat! And I'm never going to a goddamn steakhouse with anybody but the most spiritually advanced people I meet, because everyone else just wants to be dicks about it. Because otherwise, the higher your vibrational frequency, the more they want to see it lowered.

Thank you for the advice, I shall try that.