How to make sure I'm not unconsciously sending evil eye (without forgiving)

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So I've been wrestling with a major friendship breakup for a while now, and I have come to the conclusion that for all my flaws in the friendship, I was at least always willing to go through the painful process of self improvement and spiritual growth in order to change for the other person.

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But I don't wanna vindictively curse them with petty curses or whatever either.

So does anybody have any ideas how to stop that from happening?

Another perspective is that maybe they are not being unfair to you. You are being unfair to both of you.

You said it was very one sided. How long into the relationship did the one-sidedness start? You kept choosing that/you still keep choosing that vs taking the lesson that you would prefer a more balanced relationship and moving on understanding this persons freewill should be respected and they are not in a place to offer you that.

Choosing to continue one sided was unfair to you but you also kept expecting the other person to conform to your expectations(growth remorse) which is unfair to them.

You haven't truly forgiven them if you haven't understood each of us can only be where and who we are.
You do deserve a better balanced friendship, but it isn't the other persons fault you kept coming back and just expecting them to offer you that. Forgive yourself for taking so long to learn the lesson, thank them(energetically )for offering the lesson. That is all it was catalyst. Learn it well this time and there wont be repeats of the lesson.

I do think its nice you are concerned about inadvertently giving them bad energy. Can you look at that and see your soul has forgiven them. Your soul wants no harm to come to them so just do the surface work on why seeking what another does not wish to offer is a pull for you, why them not offering it hurts. Address that.