Why I awaken as this particular part of creator

[Minyatur]

Infinity/perfection pretends to be imperfect to have the experience of growth. Not for what the growth will net it but for the experience of growth.

If you remove the imperfect from infinity, you're essentially making it void and not really infinite. Infinity holds growth into completion, but there is no infinity without growth finding completion.

Another way to put it, if you remove the droplets from water then there is no water either, the essence of water lies in the individualization also. Each portion, that makes the whole of water, runs as deep as water itself.