03-31-2018, 10:13 AM
(This post was last modified: 03-31-2018, 12:08 PM by AnthroHeart.)
Thank you Agua for that advice. Yes I find that very interesting. That's why the energy didn't move.
You have so much insight.
I think that if I take my meds, they block the schizophrenia experiencing, and I may lose my ability to sense energy too because I think they close down the 3rd eye.
If I don't take them, it takes about 6 months last time before I was in a mental hospital for a short time. It acts fast if things get out of control and I can't handle them.
Well I learned. At least I could feel energetically my schizophrenia. It's very real.
I'm also trying not to just "hold on to this power". I don't want to be attached to it, but I find it useful and beneficial to have. If I have to lose it for whatever reason I'm willing to give it up.
But they say use it or lose it.
I love how the Universe works. It teaches you lessons and is sometimes counter-intuitive.
Should I use my ability to more directly face my schizophrenia, in a way I can handle?
Is it wrong to keep God's love energy with me while I face the fear, to make it easier? I feel the fear energetically in my solar plexus. Is it wrong to put God's love into the fear?
I'm also trying not to "love something out of fear" like loving something so that I can get through it and it will go away. No matter how much I want to genuinely love something, I can't get past that thought. So I'm stuck.
It is certainly right that when the student is ready the teacher will appear. I'm glad you have given your advice. That's one thing is I'm usually very good at taking advice.
I find that I lust after what I deep down actually fear. I lusted after anthros. But when I look into their actual energy, it doesn't jive with mine. It doesn't match mine.
Anthros in a past life does resonate very well with me. But not in this life. I like them, that I fell in love with one. But I find that interesting that their energy doesn't come really close to mine.
It's heavier. But why do I love them?
I just intuited that what's a good thing is to feel God's love and have it be with me, but not try to put it into the fear. Just experience the fear as it comes and love it. But when I love it, it actually sends energy from my heart chakra into what I am loving. So it's still a sending without me trying to send.
Thing is I have to face my fear without showing it. Because my mom will know I'm off my meds and I'll have to go to court.
Should I chase my fears in order to love them?
You have so much insight.
I think that if I take my meds, they block the schizophrenia experiencing, and I may lose my ability to sense energy too because I think they close down the 3rd eye.
If I don't take them, it takes about 6 months last time before I was in a mental hospital for a short time. It acts fast if things get out of control and I can't handle them.
Well I learned. At least I could feel energetically my schizophrenia. It's very real.
I'm also trying not to just "hold on to this power". I don't want to be attached to it, but I find it useful and beneficial to have. If I have to lose it for whatever reason I'm willing to give it up.
But they say use it or lose it.
I love how the Universe works. It teaches you lessons and is sometimes counter-intuitive.
Should I use my ability to more directly face my schizophrenia, in a way I can handle?
Is it wrong to keep God's love energy with me while I face the fear, to make it easier? I feel the fear energetically in my solar plexus. Is it wrong to put God's love into the fear?
I'm also trying not to "love something out of fear" like loving something so that I can get through it and it will go away. No matter how much I want to genuinely love something, I can't get past that thought. So I'm stuck.
It is certainly right that when the student is ready the teacher will appear. I'm glad you have given your advice. That's one thing is I'm usually very good at taking advice.
I find that I lust after what I deep down actually fear. I lusted after anthros. But when I look into their actual energy, it doesn't jive with mine. It doesn't match mine.
Anthros in a past life does resonate very well with me. But not in this life. I like them, that I fell in love with one. But I find that interesting that their energy doesn't come really close to mine.
It's heavier. But why do I love them?
I just intuited that what's a good thing is to feel God's love and have it be with me, but not try to put it into the fear. Just experience the fear as it comes and love it. But when I love it, it actually sends energy from my heart chakra into what I am loving. So it's still a sending without me trying to send.
Thing is I have to face my fear without showing it. Because my mom will know I'm off my meds and I'll have to go to court.
Should I chase my fears in order to love them?