STS Individual Taking Advantage of STO Individual

[Sacred Fool]

What do you see as the spiritual challenges/lessons in play here?

I feel like im their guide or something and they are soooooo far from the Source that they literally need someone to hold their hand 100% of the time.

They are supposed to be learning to love someone and actually follow through with it.

I'm supposed to learn utmost patience with these abusive sadistic actions that do nothing but fill me with dark energy, and constantly heal myself of it.  While still attempting to heal them along the way.

I've done literally nothing but good things for them expecting nothing in return, but what i do get in return is hatred.

Hmmm.  Well, to take that a step further, Q'uo has mentioned a few times that higher density beings sometimes weigh the whole of their vibration and find themselves more cogent in the Love department than in Wisdom department, and then choose situations in 3rd Density which will call them to look at an excessive surplus of love and consider whether or not this is the way to serve.  Because in 3D this distortion can distress one to the core, it gives an opportunity to strengthen your Wisdom muscles which might help re-balance your entire soul stream.  (By the way, they also speak of right use of power in the same way as Wisdom, Love balance/imbalance.

So, maybe it would be useful to look within yourself to see if you find your wholly self-giving m/o to be wise or not?  Maybe you could look inward to see if the power and energy exchange pattern you are sharing is what you feel is truly good and proper?

For example, you might find that your participation in this set-up partly supports your own need for security.  If  you discover that and desire to change it, what would be a better use of power?  How could you re-posture or modify your need to give in such a way as to create more balance (i.e., less strain) in your mind, body and spirit?

I hope this is helpful.