03-12-2018, 02:31 PM
(This post was last modified: 03-12-2018, 04:05 PM by AnthroHeart.)
It's getting more real it seems.
The artist posted a beautiful drawing of Sam and another he loves nude in a loving embrace. Nothing was showing.
But then I had nerves. I became very nervous. Some of the thoughts I had of him before made me feel guilt.
If I had Sam here, I'd probably fall apart. I wouldn't have the nerve to do anything.
I feel weak now, and my stomach feels queasy.
The artist had never drawn anything like that before and made it public that I know of.
Maybe I manifested it. It isn't extreme by any means. It is quite lovely.
Just that my heart is trembling now. I don't know if I could handle that much of him.
It's going to take some time.
I'm in love with his heart, but I'm scared of his body.
I am thankful to the artist and to him for making it more real.
He's just a little chubby. I wasn't expecting that, but I am fat.
Though I have seen pictures of his belly before.
The artist posted a beautiful drawing of Sam and another he loves nude in a loving embrace. Nothing was showing.
But then I had nerves. I became very nervous. Some of the thoughts I had of him before made me feel guilt.
If I had Sam here, I'd probably fall apart. I wouldn't have the nerve to do anything.
I feel weak now, and my stomach feels queasy.
The artist had never drawn anything like that before and made it public that I know of.
Maybe I manifested it. It isn't extreme by any means. It is quite lovely.
Just that my heart is trembling now. I don't know if I could handle that much of him.
It's going to take some time.
I'm in love with his heart, but I'm scared of his body.
I am thankful to the artist and to him for making it more real.
He's just a little chubby. I wasn't expecting that, but I am fat.
Though I have seen pictures of his belly before.