I found it. The esoteric truths.

[jxster66]

Henry T. Laurency is great, He states it like it is and doesn't hold back. A man by the name of Stanton stevens has these great talks on youtube that have been uploaded for him, I'll link a few(He reads from laurency and explains what he means). They only have a thousand views on each but are they great stuff, Such an intelligent man and great speaker. He also has a website that's stated in the youtube description. I would highly recommend everyone watch them.
(I totally didn't see that DungBeetle had already stated what I stated, I just shared it without looking but here's some quick links on my personal favorite talks of his)