Ways to work on yellow rays after leaving isolation

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I'm on the verge of the largest step I have had to make in this life so far; the step towards communicating and making bonds with others.

Most of my life has been going the opposite way in which I haven't made real friendships or cared about anyone.

During the past 8 years, video games have been the focus and while I had a couple friends who I played with. I would tend to get annoyed with them and appear offline as my skill level improved and theirs wouldn't. I have stopped playing video games and watching tv, and i have healed a lot of the wounds from before.

At the point i'm at now I have no idea how to hold a conversation with someone so I just ordered 2 different books about social intelligence and how to make friends and influence people.

A large part of my problem stems from not knowing myself. Viewing my life from an outside perspective, I need to better understand myself. Then with that information find hobbies or other things I can do in the community with others. Hopefully to help me see in the present myself as a similar being while speaking to others (i see differences atm).

I can feel a pain when I focus on my heart chakra which when I was younger I thought was some sort of physical problem. It would appear at different times mostly throughout my younger days where it would hurt to breath in my upper middle left lung.

Now that I have associated that with my heart chakra, it seems that i need more energy flowing through my yellow ray to possible clear the blockage or atleast better understand it.

Any tips would be appreciated, thanks  

Do you have much association with animals? Animals are very honest communicators and can help you learn to read body language and nuance. Books are great but it may keep you relating on an intellectual level vs experiencing true connection.

It may be an easier first step to learn to connect with them. You could even just volunteer to go pet the cats an hour a week at a rescue or some similar low stress option.