Spiritual Depression

[GentleReckoning]

So I was on YouTube a few days ago and I found this video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nBKm3SYJUI8

It's about what happens when you go through a spiritual awakening, and a process called the Dark Night of the Soul (at the 10:10 mark *synchronicityyyyyy*) and about how when one becomes "awakened", they go through a period of existential crisis, confusion, identity lost, etc...

Does anyone have more information? Or maybe you have gone through something like this? I'd like to learn more because I feel like I'm starting to go through my own dark night >_>. I was excited for college, first semester was easy peasy, now a month and a half into second semester things are going awry and I don't know why. It's left me mentally drained and confused, I don't know what I want or where I want to go or who I want to be. I want to just get lost somewhere and be free...

And this is all so sudden, I mean I was feeling it a little bit before but now it's like I've been punched in the face. Things in this world don't seem the way they use to, in a way I cannot describe with words. As shitty as this feels, deep down there's this innate feeling of peace... it's odd.


Edit: Went away for a snack, came back to finish this post and it's 11:44

As your vibration rises, you begin manifesting your negative distortions to be cleared. For a lot of people from families where the baby is idolized and entertained 24/7, the first distortion manifested is laziness and the desire to be entertained and validated by others. Especially in college as it's happening on a group level as individuals leave their parents for the first time.