An interesting dream and a paradox

[Louisabell]

For all the bad, without it, there'd be no reference to give meaning and depth to good.  Having contrasting viewpoints in two extremes created all of this illusion, the reality is one viewpoint, all viewpoints.

...I...Asked myself...  If I could have the power, to take it all back, all of the suffering I've felt in my life.  To have never known any of these...those things at all.

I would not take anything back.  That realization made me, well, realize that even all of this madness and insanity and pointlessness and meaninglessness, had a reason to be, and that reason was what mattered, not those things in and of themself.
The pain, and suffering, becomes...  Put into perspective.
That perspective is Love.

Even the Darkness is Light.  Enlightenment doesn't come from figures of Light, but from making Darkness Conscious.

To enter the Inner Sanctum of the Green Ray, one must come to love the dark figures that stalk it's Outer Courtyard and find mercy for the self.

This is how I feel as well. For me, I know when a difficult catalyst has been processed to completion when I can turn around and say it was worth it, totally worth it.

Universalising this also really helped me with balancing an overabundance of pity for others. It can be part of a feminine aspect to look upon others and focus on their innocence, and thereby seeing them as children that need protection, but really, if you're experiencing very difficult catalyst, maybe your soul is just more badass than I could ever imagine.

As for the gargoyles that watch the keep, they have been with me always. I used to fancy myself a satanist when I was a teenager. Funny times. But I hate hierarchies, so I evolved to LOO, which I see to be a more liberating philosophy.