How do you know that you are a wanderer?

[risa369]

Hey John, thanks for sharing.

I have a question for you: what would it feel like to be a wanderer?

Many wanderers have issues with substance abuse. I believe this is because we're used to a much clearer, cleaner, obvious experience of unity, and this is a gratification we miss.

I appreciate everyone's response on this.  I'm not sure what a wanderer should feel like.  Just curious if anyone else had insight.

I think the substance abuse itself has really opened my eyes.  Before, i use to have a straight and narrow view and didn't understand how people could do some of the things they do.  Afterwards, i realized that anyone can get to a point of killing, stealing, etc if given the right stimulus.  I did not get to the point, but i started questioning myself because i began losing control over my own will.  I kept asking myself "This is not the person that i am. Why do i keep doing this?"

In my experience using marijuana can be of benefit. but abusing it is is not.
I mean if you use it like in rituals and not so often it may help a lot.

I've always KNEW that this 'reality' as people here call it, is not even close to all that there is. As a child, I was very interested and obsessed with ghosts, spirituality, afterlife, reincarnations, out of body experiences...all the metaphysical stuff. I have never felt like i 'fit in.' I spent a lot of energy trying to fit in, trying to mimic others around me, desiring the same objects, appearance, everything...to the point where it spiraled down to a deep depression as I had no idea who I was. I went through this major identity/existential crisis when I was in high school (2012-2016), up to the end of 2016.

I was different, but I did not know why or how.
I was very old but very young at the same time, and basic human concepts such as money, society, relationships...did not make sense to me (and it still really doesn't).

and then, I started meditating beginning of 2017. And I can say that not only it pulled me out of depression/anxiety, it has helped me to find the key to 'me.'
I am still on the journey to remembering and will be until my body dies on earth, but I have realized that I incarnated on earth to help others go through this major transformation from 3d to 4d, by radiating love to everything I encounter and think about. Even before coming across the Law of One, I began to see everything as love and light, from the air that surrounds all of us, to static objects, to people and all living/breathing organisms.

I believe that conscious giving of love is very powerful and it goes a long way to raising the vibration of people around me, as well as earth.
I am truly blessed to be here at this great period of time, and I know I will treasure this earth experience infinitely.