How do you know that you are a wanderer?

[JJCarsonian]

Hey John, thanks for sharing.

I have a question for you: what would it feel like to be a wanderer?

Many wanderers have issues with substance abuse. I believe this is because we're used to a much clearer, cleaner, obvious experience of unity, and this is a gratification we miss.

I appreciate everyone's response on this. I'm not sure what a wanderer should feel like. Just curious if anyone else had insight.

I think the substance abuse itself has really opened my eyes. Before, i use to have a straight and narrow view and didn't understand how people could do some of the things they do. Afterwards, i realized that anyone can get to a point of killing, stealing, etc if given the right stimulus. I did not get to the point, but i started questioning myself because i began losing control over my own will. I kept asking myself "This is not the person that i am. Why do i keep doing this?"