Vent (Trigger warning)

[Ra1111]

Doctors told me once I was manic depressive bipolar schizoid this, that, and everything else. I understand how painful it is. I believe these types of “diagnoses” are merely contact with intelligent infinity, and if they are difficult and painful like you have been experiencing, the key is more heart energy, less blue/indigo and higher energies. Concentrate on universal love, even if (especially if) the notion of a creator who loves you no matter what does not currently resonate with you now.

Here are two quotes that popped into my mind for you , I hope you mediate on them and know that I’m praying for “it to get better” for you.

Michael

Ra: I am Ra. Consider, if you will, the path your life-experience complex has taken. Consider the coincidences and odd circumstances by which one thing flowed to the next. Consider this well.

Each entity will receive the opportunity that each needs. This information source-beingness does not have uses in the life-experience complex of each of those among your peoples who seek.

When fifth-density refinement has been achieved that which is not is carried further, the wisdom density being explored by entities which have no compassion, no universal love. They experience that which they wish by free choice, being of the earnest opinion that green-ray energy is folly.

That which is not may be seen as a self-imposed darkness in which harmony is turned into an eternal disharmony. However, that which is not cannot endure throughout the octave of third density and, as darkness eventually calls the light, so does that which is not eventually call that which is.