Todays Daily Q'uote

[Zach]

I agree, that quote touched me as well. I spent a lot of my life striving for self control, and control of others. It only got me to a dead end. I basically became homeless voluntarily a month ago in order to live on the streets, in order to increase my faith and better learn how to be of service to others, because my comfy student life offered very little opportunity to exercise faith or be of service. So far it's been very effective. I've seen some dark things already, and experienced true loneliness, but also I've been able to experience firsthand the power of faith. I don't know how I'm going to wake up in the mornings (Blessed are the police, security guards and council workers), and I never know if my gear is going to be there when I return to wherever I'm camped. It was difficult at first to surrender control, but now I actually love the feeling of knowing that things are being aligned for me by a force greater than myself. I trust in God. He/She/It gives me a shopping trolley when my legs are weak, and a friend when I'm sullen and alone, and an opportunity to be of service when I'm feeling like a waste.

Now for the first time in my life, I have a full set of fingernails, unpicked and unchewed. Faith is the best gift you can give yourself, I believe. I'll go back to my life, hopefully a much better person, when it's time to re-take the subjects I failed/dropped out of last semester. Until then I'll live by faith and keep on embracing whatever life throws at me. There's always something which will cushion your hardships and comfort you when you're down, if you just have faith.

Edit: Just had to come back to the library to say that faith has won again. As I walked out after making the original post, a group of Hare Krishna chanters came down the road chanting their happy song, and I decided I would join them. It turned into a free hot vegetarian meal and an opportunity to volunteer at their kitchen, as well as making some new Hindu friends who understand TLOO in a basically undistorted fashion. This leap of faith is paying off more and more.

thanks for this. I resonate with your thoughts and experience.

I respect your Courage and sense of Exploration.

Keep doing you to the full. Keep us updated.