How do you know that you are a wanderer?

[Quan]

I know Ra gave some insights into wanderers, but what are some other tell-tale signs that you are a wandering?

I feel like i've been seeking my entire life, ever since i was young (maybe 10).

My journey started with my upbringing in Christianity. I've always felt that i wanted to serve God, but i always felt something wasnt right. The christian teachings always drove me nuts, because it didnt make much sense. At the same time, I was always interested in "The Universe" and astronomy. My seeking always branched out in 2 paths - 1 through logical means by way of science, and 1 by spiritual means through religion. I always told people i wanted to be a scientist or astronomer when i grew up.

At some point, i started researching Islam and felt that this made more sense than Christianity. I felt that Islam and Judaism were closest to the religion of God, and so i went with Islam - but i always felt odd about all the weird rules and regulations placed in the Quran. I was also at odds with the extremists that we see today and the way the muslims treated women.

Then, in 2012 i had a revelation - my first peak into the spiritual/metaphysical realm when i started reading NDE stories. I just had this hunger for more information - read Edgar Cayce, Dr Michael Newton's books, Delores Cannon.

It wasn't until this year in which i feel like i found the last piece of the puzzle - the LOO material.

I've always been somewhat benevolent, but i dont quite feel like a wanderer right now. Over the last 4-5 years, i've have pain killer addiction issues, and still do. I dont feel balanced at all, and i know i need to do something about it. My heart chakra use to be wide open, but i definitely feel like its blocked, because before i use to be a very social person but am somewhat of a hermit, right now. I know wanderers dont like having kids, but I do, so i'm not sure what that means.

So at this point, i dont know what to make of myself. Am I a wanderer? I have this constant hunger for more knowledge, but i have seemed to fallin into this trap.

A fascinating journey thank you for putting it out there or should I say here

Devil is in the detail is a saying.. the answers you want will come but the parodox that more open to love in this moment more everything reveals itself just not always how you expect it or when.. and the humour it doesn't really matter.. the more open to the moment you are.