How to Know Thyself?

[Coordinate_Apotheosis]

to know thyself you'll need this:

1. faith in believeing that "All is well"

2. seroius or deep doubt about it ( why is there greed or conflict etc..) strength of doubt is in proportion of your own fait (a measuring stick )

3. Determination (from doubt strong determination arises)

if no determination arises in us to resolve the obvious contradiction between what we believe as a matter of faith ( All is well) and what appears to us to be just the reverse (greed,conflicts..) thus  we deprived ourselves of its prime source of power.

I am not a man of many words ,neither have i found yet what we all are looking for ,maybe just made a few steps for now..

Number 2...

That's terrifying to think about.  My doubt of God/Creator is nonexistent, however, that All is Well, is a different story.

Just, if this is true, I'm OUUUUT THEEERREE in some no man's land because All is Well is what I'm hung up on, what I struggle with.  How is all well when so much is happening that isn't well in a perspective?

In retrospect, this means my faith is solid as diamond, my doubt is overwhelming, I believe all will be well, but right now, all isn't well, I can't deny it or fight it or pretend, all is not well.

Even if all is well on the flipside, this side all is getting blown up, destitute, povertystricken, there's a good deal of wellness, but there's so much unwellness.

Ah...  I hope this is true, if it is, I don't have to worry, all my worry is just distortions I'm exploring because I'm (what...?) Powerful enough to handle them?  Or is it wise enough to work with them?  Loving enough?

I can't believe this all once made perfect sense to me and now I struggle with basic paradoxical equalities.  Piercing that veil makes a crazy world of difference (pun intended).

Thank you also to everyone else (and especially Jade's precision point helpfulness) and thank you past me, for making this thread.

You're still angry two years later.  That's how I know I care way too much...