I don't want to be awake.

[SkyGodWarrior]

@777

Your allowing yourself to close yourself off to the universe... the things you are perceiving as negative are there for you to show your love for it so that it is turned into a higher form of love and expression. We never really loose our opportunity to achieve something as our higher selves create the conditions for one to achieve that something after a lesson is learned. Sometimes the things we want and had high hopes for take a certain type of mind set or physical condition in order for us to best utilize what we are calling for. Also there is also the probability of asking for something and realizing that it isnt what we want or even asking for something that is hollow.

You sir.... use that energy and turn it around..... I wish I could tell you what it really meant for one to do this but one must discover these truths for themselves otherwise one would not know its truth..... (I put a lot of hints in this sentence)

Also from the way you wrote this topic it would seem I can see how you perceive the world and yourself in it? It would seem that you dont like yourself in the way the universe loves you.... it would seem that you suspect the world to punish you or put you through all these trials of death and fire in order to fulfill your "mission" Relax man.... take it easy.... find your love for the world from within and not in anything else. ONce you realize that all your love and passions come from within it would be easy to recognize them from outside of ourselves.... these are just words for now but you will have to fill them in order to know their truth....

I know in my case I was very un emotional and etc and going down a path that ultimately would of lead me to a unhappy life.... as I was basically homeless for 3 years.... before that I had a stable job... car and a nice place to stay... it was comfortable....then disaster struck......... my job in the military didnt pay me for 5 months because of government shut down..... My bank account was frozen because of identify theft and would be frozen for 60 days.... my car broke down after a bad mechanic job... then a ice storm that hasn't happened to the region for 30years comes and it goes on for 3 whole days lol... I think all I had was peanut butter to eat.....

I knew that if I let my self be defeated by these circumstances that it would just get worse and worse because in that way your allowing and accepting this form of stuff from the universe to happen and all the associated energies and beings that come with in to come your way... I will give you another hint... feeling helpless just feeds those beings..... giving them more power... Chin up man

every day is a great day... you just have to realize it.

I could go on and on but you get the picture.... embrace and love the suck.... see how it makes you feel... talk to God or what ever you believe in... ask your guardians to help you understand and see what you need to learn in order to live the life you were meant to live....