Why Aren't Men Fighting Back? - The Sexual Assault of Men and Boys

[YinYang]

Hey C_A

Thanks for reaching out to me in PM, I guess you’re the bigger person here. I am really sorry for how I hurt you, there is no excuse. I feel awful.

I hope my PM shed a little light on how the cookie crumbled here over quite some time. It doesn’t excuse my behaviour of course, and I thank you for forgiving me.

You are smart, funny and talented, and I had no right to throw diagnoses around without even knowing you, or knowing your past or your triggers. For that I sincerely apologise. Thank you for the catalyst, it was needed.

I will be taking a hiatus from this forum for a while, it’s just too messy. I had a clear dream the other night, in it I was stuck in a traffic jam. I was close to the back of the traffic jam, with only a few cars behind me, and a truck sped up to us from behind whose breaks had obviously failed and slammed into the cars at the back. All the people in the cars behind me were dead, and I narrowly escaped. It was such a clear dream that I knew it had to mean something.

I lay there in bed and knew that the “stuck” feeling is how I feel when I participate here. It troubles me. I don’t know if I helped some, I’m pretty sure I hurt some and f***** up on numerous occasions, but it’s time to move on - the ever dancing Yin and Yang... Sorry to everyone I ever hurt here, I’m not so good with putting a guard in front of my mouth…. aaaaaand, I’m tired of fighting.

My only advice (thank you Alan Watts), is don’t take yourselves so seriously. Remember to laugh, remember to play, and remember the humour. I love you all, thanks for a wild ride!