What can cause holes in auric fields, LSD, Childhood sexual assult but what else?

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Also my best advice to you for achieving what you want, in terms of etheric development, is to pursue and study the subject of Alchemy. Internal Alchemy holds the keys to what you seek. Im not talking about old medieval alchemy of changing metals in to gold. That is also just a system of symbols representative of an internal process of spiritual and etheric development.

I already know this. I know most of what is commonly available about alchemy. What I need to know is how to reverse the damage done to my brain, heart, soul, aura, and kundalini, because some knowledgeable people used very advanced techniques to f*** it up, and nothing I've read has instructions on how to deal with anything like that. Any ideas on that in particular?

Also, I was referring to the thing where you said that I shouldn't have light in my heart because of my actions, and the rest was hyperbole; I don't accuse of you being a Christian, and don't have to if you act like one. Most people in Western society are Christians in disguise; the world hasn't really recovered much yet even if Christianity's power is fading, and its etheric structures and thoughtforms are still dominant, even among atheists and most neopagans, etc.

Where did I say that? Well you are to free to label and identify as you will. I'm just some dude on the internet. I care not how you view me. I do not recall saying that and it is not the case. I believe there is light in every heart and indeed it is my wish to grow that light in all cases, as well as with you. I want you to have whaf you want, I just also believe that what you desire now is not actually the heart of your desires and is more a desire that has come out of the conditions of your life.

In that regard willpower seems to be paramount when it comes to rebuilding one's structure, combined with a knowledge of structure. Having a good understanding of anatomy, both physical and metaphysical is a good first step. First you must be able to detach your view so as to be able to perceive your wounds objectively. Gain a mental image of the damaged state. Then through will you conceive of the transformation from the damaged state to the repaired state. Thats the mental process. Then you have to bring it in to the physical. The mental creates the etheric template. The emotional realm is the key to bridging the mental and physical. Thus you energize the thought-form through faith whether that be based in dark or light or grey. That is the vivifying agent. You must be able to feel in your body everything that you mentally and emotionally conceive of.

Work back and forth between general and specific. Continue in a constant conceptualization of repair, energized by emotional fervor and focus in mentally on the reconstruction. Key here is knowing what you want to create and not fucking yourself up by accident. First learn what is required for a system to be in balance and then through the clear vision the will can reconstruct the physical body.

Thus, faith is the key. You have to really believe, feel, physically feel what it will feel like to be repaired and transformed. You have to know that it will work. You have to kill doubt. You have to have certainty of will. Then reality will yield to you.