What can cause holes in auric fields, LSD, Childhood sexual assult but what else?

[Mahakali]

Also my best advice to you for achieving what you want, in terms of etheric development, is to pursue and study the subject of Alchemy. Internal Alchemy holds the keys to what you seek. Im not talking about old medieval alchemy of changing metals in to gold. That is also just a system of symbols representative of an internal process of spiritual and etheric development.

I already know this. I know most of what is commonly available about alchemy. What I need to know is how to reverse the damage done to my brain, heart, soul, aura, and kundalini, because some knowledgeable people used very advanced techniques to f*** it up, and nothing I've read has instructions on how to deal with anything like that. Any ideas on that in particular?

Also, I was referring to the thing where you said that I shouldn't have light in my heart because of my actions, and the rest was hyperbole; I don't accuse of you being a Christian, and don't have to if you act like one. Most people in Western society are Christians in disguise; the world hasn't really recovered much yet even if Christianity's power is fading, and its etheric structures and thoughtforms are still dominant, even among atheists and most neopagans, etc.