Premonition, dreams, destiny.

[Nowheretoday]

Everyday doing just enough to get by, with nowhere to focus my will and love, doing enough to fulfill what's expected of me and doing enough so I don't fall in a hole of depression. On top of that knowing that no matter how hard you try to change things, I get the dream saying, sorry that's not for you, your life gonna be this.
I'm sorry for bringing my whining to this forum, I'm not asking for your sympathy but maybe guidance, understand, perhaps see things different.