11-12-2017, 06:55 PM
Hey, I'm sure he saw you as hostile too. No worries from me here lol.
I'm actually fairly fake... Gah, blast, I am very fake. I'm actually a very lazy, very tired, very frustrated, perverted, judgmental, stubborn ass hole. Just ask my mother hahaha! Hah! Ah hah... hah... Yeah.
I honestly believe my only redeeming qualities are the ridiculous amounts of caring I feel for others, my intensive contemplative nature, and my sexual capabilities...
Beyond that, I pretty much judge myself into oblivion.
I saw a post by Diana today while perusing the Who's Online list, about empowerment. It rang so deeply true to me it actually hurt because I realized I have never once in my life felt empowered. In fact, more than anything, I very often feel helpless by my own learned motions to make myself so. It's actually very embarrassing when you reach out for help, then deny it because deep down inside it feels hopeless and pointless.
But I am finding out continually that I should try to be... The best I can be, and I shouldn't beat myself up so much, or be afraid of letting go of old ways of thinking.
Perhaps auric holes can effect how one thinks and feels and not just their susceptibility to being influenced by external forces.
I'm sure I've got a few holes that need some healing... Ways of thinking that need transforming.
I'm actually fairly fake... Gah, blast, I am very fake. I'm actually a very lazy, very tired, very frustrated, perverted, judgmental, stubborn ass hole. Just ask my mother hahaha! Hah! Ah hah... hah... Yeah.
I honestly believe my only redeeming qualities are the ridiculous amounts of caring I feel for others, my intensive contemplative nature, and my sexual capabilities...
Beyond that, I pretty much judge myself into oblivion.
I saw a post by Diana today while perusing the Who's Online list, about empowerment. It rang so deeply true to me it actually hurt because I realized I have never once in my life felt empowered. In fact, more than anything, I very often feel helpless by my own learned motions to make myself so. It's actually very embarrassing when you reach out for help, then deny it because deep down inside it feels hopeless and pointless.
But I am finding out continually that I should try to be... The best I can be, and I shouldn't beat myself up so much, or be afraid of letting go of old ways of thinking.
Perhaps auric holes can effect how one thinks and feels and not just their susceptibility to being influenced by external forces.
I'm sure I've got a few holes that need some healing... Ways of thinking that need transforming.