What can cause holes in auric fields, LSD, Childhood sexual assult but what else?

[Cainite]

I'm so used to being attacked by strangers for no apparent reason.. believe me. I no longer find it strange.

But on the internet? this has never happened to me. only once, and the person deleted his mean comments after I responded. then I found out some are threatened by me and spend so much energy trying to make me feel like a stranger.. even more.
It's still probably my own fault.. I may seem scary or sth.

How did I offend him? all I do on this forum is seeking help. by pointing out my ''embarrassing'' faults and problems.

I'm damaged and want to be healed as I said. that's why I'm here..
Is ignoring me so hard? does he want to hurt me or help me overcome my faults by pointing them out?

I know my own intentions. I seek to help those who are damaged as I am.

How can liking sth mainstream make you stupid? american dad or anything.. I dont watch it but I did actually find the ending of the video I shared very funny. now does that make me stupid?

I never thought I'm very intelligent cuz of sth like that. because I listen to good music made with instruments. now should I think less of somebody cuz they like rap?