What can cause holes in auric fields, LSD, Childhood sexual assult but what else?

[Glow]

I often feel regret about my deceased cat.  I feel like I did not pet him enough, and punished him too often, and didn't think about him enough.  So, I try to do better with my current cat.  I am doing better with my current cat, and that makes me feel a bit happier.  Sort of.  Just a bit, but I do have to admit, my first cat was awesome, he deserved more pets and attention, and that will sit with me for the rest of my life, reminding me that all cats deserve a lot of loving attention, often, at least weekly, just a few minutes of petting them.  Poor animals rely on us humans to survive, at least I could give them more attention.

It does make me want to understand how animals are though, so perhaps death isn't all bad, it drives us to be better, to understand more.

I guess if your regret at not giving your last cat enough attention is fueling you to give the current one more then you are using that catalyst well. Don't let the guilt fester though. Same as goes for the hamster or deceased relatives we are all of god and so understand once we cross. We can even reach that understanding here so don't hold to tight to that self judgement, let it do its job at illiciting a behavior change you think is appropriate then let it go, the cat has. It doesn't need to fester, and you/god as that cat would like better things and experiences for you.