(11-08-2017, 10:52 AM)rva_jeremy Wrote:Jeshua Wrote:You are teachers and healers, you do have a mission on earth. But to truly fulfill it, you – paradoxically – need to let go of that dire need to change things, because your eagerness to do so has an edge of pain to it, the pain of not feeling at home on earth as it is now.
The entire excerpt is wonderful, but this strikes home particularly. It's definitely something I've felt in activism, for instance: that there's so much pain embedded in the work for change that a mere sense of urgency and justice can easily carry a charge of anger and pain that dilutes the potential to call the best out from within each. We often don't seem to have any concept in activism of actually healing --instead, we can only address our pain through large-scale politics, which of course is hardly going to deliver personal transformation.
If one can really internalize this, one can start to form mental models about how what you're doing, Glow, contributes in a tangible--or at least tangible enough--way to the larger service needed. Helping our brothers and sisters heal themselves in those small, intimate, unpredictable moments is really the unsung work of activism; it cannot be worn on your sleeve, it does not contribute to a policy outcome, it does not put more food in anybody's bellies.
Sorry to view all of this through the lens of politics, but sometimes I feel like social work and changing the system are the only things that really look like "service" to me, so I struggle with this myself. I suspect there's something in the non-ego-gratifying nature of this kind of entity-to-entity love that trains us to pay attention to another kind of gratification more centered in unity. Or perhaps it is conditioning for service without any gratification at all. Both would be powerful ways to wield love, indeed.
Its funny you mention that as I just got a glimpse of that light/knowledge last week. I could not have put it into words as well as you have and all typed up it makes so much perfect sense.
I had a session last week where a lingering mother spirit's grief at having left her son, and his grief basically was causing a unstoppable self perpetuating cycle of grief. What they both really felt was love for each other, she stays because of her love(like we do) but because she was grounding that love in grief she was not at all helping the situation or her son. I was told/shown/received the light that we must ground our love here as much as possible in love and gratitude and joy vs those other emotions that are already so plentiful here.
I'm still trying to figure out how to do that as I'm not 100% happy, I still feel like an outsider so loneliness and I feel I still myself get lost in the grief.
What is the balance to that feeling of being on the outside? ....
I wonder too on the activism thing if some wanderers by design have to go into that energy to reach others that carry that pain and help them heal.
I do not carry much anger, I'm really not good at anger, it fizzles like a hot coal thrown in ice water, so I am not very good at healing that.
I learned forgiveness in the womb I think, sadness, anxiety, low self worth, lack of self forgiveness, that s*** I can heal.
One of my best friends(not awake wanderer) is consumed by anger I have no tricks to help other than suggestion of
recapitulation which would only make him angrier so... my wounds cant help him in that area.
I assume everything is needed, either as a lesson, or as a service for healing. My human brain cant calculate it all. lol