(11-06-2017, 04:43 PM)Cainite Wrote: In whatever situation or relationship I feel very alone. but this loneliness doesn't bother me anymore, at least not as much as ''not being with a mate'' does bother almost anyone else.
I think I know this loneliness. It to me seems to be separation from God. Humans can never really fill that longing. I had it disappear completely once because of a catalyst experience that allowed me to see only the creator in another wanderer. It was like having god in the flesh right by your side. Couldn't last due to circumstances, likely was never intended to or it would have.
I know I felt that lonliness before him but couldn't have named it, because I had never had that feeling absolved with the undeniable presence. Anyways I think we all feel it to greater or lessor degree. Glad you are getting better at handling it.
Some days are easier than others.
I think this feeling is what drives others to attain wealth, seek superficial relationships, have lots of meaningless sex, chase the golden carrot, busy busy busy always thinking this will be the thing that fills that place inside. I don't think its meant to be filled, just used as a beacon calling us back eventually home.
Maybe not
