Wanderers and relationships/sexuality

[Glow]

Most females like complete a******s or like to be lied to. I donnu why negativity and evil attracts them most.
I know exactly how to for example make my hair, act, speak, ... for them to really become interested in me. but that's just not me and I rather be myself than impress ppl who have such blockages.

Most people are actively stuck in pain patterns and are constantly trying to recreate old wounds hoping it will be different this time and they will be loved. I don't judge but feel compassion, it must be horrible.

I see monogamy as Coordinate_Apotheosis and Glow do.

I'm not sure the way I see monogamy came across correctly. I love commitment, and have no interest in casual sex. I actually wouldn't be with anyone who wanted casual sex, even from others. Not a judgement, just our needs wouldn't parallel each other.

I love to go deep and explore my love for a person for a lifetime I just don't think it has to be just one person. I think its fear and control that drive that.

Pretty much the only thing I see wrong with current monogomous relationships is that its limited to just ONE. Which is ownership, having the same loving relationship paradigm just not so limiting is what is ideal for me.

I love the heck out of my husband all of him even his "flaws" the world would say exist, I just want more of that and think him having more would be a blessing vs a curse. Im not at all interested in shallow quick relationships or liasons where no one loves to deep, its flesh based or no strings attached, the sto part of relationships is the dedication, nurturing, care, protection and spoiling that show you see them as not a passing fancy but someone you will go the distance for. At least that is how it works for me, how I am wired.

Not sure I needed to clarify but I did. Because it sounds like both you and CA see casual sex as something you both see as preferable and I don't. Its the dedication of committed relationships that I love. I think though if we didn't have to pick only one person we wouldn't "fall out of love" when we met another we loved. There would be no need to abandon those we treasure, just incorporate more love in.

I used to enjoy watching female faces as they enjoyed. the more intelligent, stylish, and real they were the better.
I could've built a relationship or slept with many.
But I would rarely approach them or even seem approachable or not reject them even when I was very lonely.

just curious why? Is it ownership you are avoiding or commitment because the two are very different things, often blurred in this culture.

For a while I decided to just try casual sex.
But then it turned out these ppl are not ready for it, and it would end up with my depolarization.

This is the part I was referring to I'm not sure its a "not ready for it" thing. More what one seeks from relationship, physical sensation or emotional/spiritual which in this demension(without telepathy and total transparency oneness) require time investment to actually reach.

And of course less blockages in my chakras make my taste a lot different than them. they like to be belittled or they like bondage.. disgusting stuff.

Usually this stuff comes from pain and things yet resolved. I've explored some of these things and because there was/always will be a great deal of love between us there was no depolarization, done correctly it can actually help the one you love work through blockages. I certainly understand it not being what resonates. I considered it a gift of service to one I love/loved deeply.

Haven't been in any relationships for years and don't intend to start one. and I've recently rejected the girls who know me and wanted to come to my house to check out my cats (yeah.. lol. weaklings can't admit their true purpose).

I hate ownership. My ex (my current best friend) is now with someone else but still we speak daily and hang out once a week.
Her BF is also a very good friend of mine. we're a powerful triangle like Don, Jim, and Carla.  Angel  (of course I'm Don  Cool )
She thinks she has two lovers. but my love for her goes beyond romance and is more brotherly.

My first mate I love in a mate/sister/mother/bestfriend way. I think that is called divine love and is a sign of a strong soul connection. She sounds pretty lucky. I hope you find what works best for you and makes you very happy in the long run.

Now I live like a monk, except with long hair and almost no desire for sex or a new relationship. except if the person is very awakened.
I just advise them and become like their shrinks. (good way to teach the Law of One)

I think this would be me if I was single.
But you never know where life will take you, or what you are being readied for.