Worry/Hope

[YinYang]

Coordinate Apotheosis, I hope that I was able to plants some seeds in this thread which might or might not germinate. It's like the parable of the sower I guess, and I can assure you that I definitely don't have it all figured out, far from it, it is just a possibility that I might have some hurdles behind me that lies ahead of you, who knows? You might have other hurdles behind you, that lies ahead of me... every entity's evolution is unique.

I have satisfied my curiosity about the dark side long ago, and so should you. I had a "run in"...let's call it a run in, with an 'extremely' negative entity loooong ago, I never knew such evil could exist, and I needed to understand it. So I spent a very long time reading the darkest books about 'evil'. I read an immense amount of psychology books about psychopathology, narcissism, demonic possession, the left hand path, etc. I 'did' satisfy my own curiosity, and I reached a saturation point, and when I was done, I was done. I feel I have a relatively good grasp on it, and the Ra material was instrumental in my understanding of STS as a chosen polarity. Why someone would choose it, I'll never understand, that will remain a mystery to me, but we know that some do...

You stubbornness will serve you well, I'm also very stubborn. Your fear of being attacked lies in a lack of faith, all fear has its origination in a lack of faith. Unfortunately faith is not something you can buy at your local grocery store :-) I was carjacked in Johannesburg a few years ago, with a gun against each side of my head. I was never afraid throughout the entire incident, I had this extreme calm come over me, from where?... I don't know... 'They' were afraid, I could see it in their eyes. I just felt so sorry for them, to be so desperate that they have to resort to such measures to survive... I have been a victim of crime more times than I care to remember, and every single time I was just so relaxed. Take the damn stuff, it's just stuff.

Although mind you, there was this one day when I gave a criminal a good run for his money, literally! Lol! I'm kind of wild! I had this garden boy for the day, and then he asked me to drop him off in town, so I said cool. And as we drove into this "no-go zone", I realised this is not good. So I eventually dropped him in the most dangerous part of town, and as I was standing at a traffic light speaking on my phone, someone grabbed my phone out of my hand through my car window, and I thought f*** this, not today! I switched off my car in peak hour traffic, cars in front of me and behind me, and started chasing after him. I was actually gaining on him, not exactly knowing what I would do when I 'do' reach him... what? Tackle him to the ground? Lol! Then I realised I have my dog in my car, so I turned around and started running back to my car. When I got there they smashed my car window, but my labrador puppy was still on the back seat, and I thought to myself "how could I be so STUPID!"

Life here on planet earth is certainly action-packed, to say the least... I can't really tell you where to find your inspiration, maybe a book, maybe a someone, maybe a song, maybe nature...maybe all of them combined, but in the end they all show the same way, to the One. I love it here, life is a gift!  

I don't know why I was drawn to this thread. When I made my first post I thought to myself "now why did you do that? This is gonna turn into another s*** fest again"... it's a cult...no it isn't... yes it is...lol! That's 'my' stubbornness! It turned into a surprisingly interesting exchange of ideas :-)

Maybe one day when you come to Cape Town we can walk and talk about everything from a positive perspective, and I can show you the magic of this beautiful land, this beautiful planet!

Here's a little song for you!