Worry/Hope

[Coordinate_Apotheosis]

Hey CA,

The only two things I fear about death are that love will be so intense that I will suffocate on it and not be able to handle it.
And that I will be overrun by anthros and all my fantasies of them till it overwhelms me.

I think everything we desired we get, and more.

Personally I think you've such power to meet that overwhelming experience in such a way as to handle it well.  I wouldn't worry about love suffocating you, if anything that suffocation will be like getting hugged too hard to breath, the grasp will ease.

I hope you're right about us getting what we desire.

So long as it isn't every little desire had, as I've desired to kill but I leave that to video games, I don't want to really kill, I just want to create change in people who hurt others.

I've also desired to rape, but that was out of extreme sexual frustration towards people who tease me or were cruel to me in sexual ways.  I'd never rape someone even then, I wouldn't be able to keep an erection in that kind of messed up situation.

Overall most of my desires center around just experiencing new pleasant things like friendships, fun 'battles' or games of competition, or just experiencing a life with powers like Naruto or DBZ.

I'll avoid all of my dark desires, they're shallow and superficial and harmful to others, I'll stick to my positive desires of exploration and discovery and experience.