Can't trust or like anyone anymore!

[xise]

Just felt like writing about some of the difficulties I'm facing in my spiritual path. (yellow ray issues)

I've been let down by people around me time after time since I can remember. it started in my childhood. I still think most of my childhood friends were evil and mostly garbage.. even though it might be difficult to imagine a child being evil.

I'm nearly 28 Now and I've lost all hope in the majority of earth inhabitants.
Maybe it's just that my countrymen are terrible.. I really do hope foreigners are better. I've just never been anywhere else.. but I'm sure this is one of the worst countries with respect to morality.
Since the only kind of people I may like are on the internet and not from this country.

So these people.. I'm totally disgusted by their baseness, stupidity, prejudices, selfishness, treachery, judgement, lack of discernment, and .......the list goes on. and can't do anything about the way I feel.

The only thing that keeps me going now is the thought that only a very small portion of the creation including most of the people I interact with are this low.

If it's a repeating pattern from early age, there's probably a life lesson or even a pre-incarnative planned lesson there. Although I've always seen dealing with individuals you know as orange ray, and yellow ray to be about groups or views of society, so perhaps there are both orange and yellow aspects of this.

That being said, I think it is natural (but still a lesson) to feel some yellow ray discomfort since so many of us are so different than most of the society - global and often local - around us. I do feel a bit of what you feel, and there seems to be a pull to either think more like the society around us to feel accepted (which may be natural but I think is backward when it comes to orange/yellow evolution) or work on understanding and accepting the vast majority of society which still is 3D (green), and just accept that our path seems to be a relatively more lonely one when it comes to true friendship/intimacy...

That latter part is mainly orange/yellow; maybe not completely lonely, but when I venture into the dating scene on a yearly basis or so, I basically feel I have to put my wish for someone interesting in spiritual evolution to the side because it's hard enough as is to find someone compatible...almost feel like I have avoid talking about spiritual stuff on even third+ dates even though it's a non-trivial part of me with the vast majority of people...I know it's killing my blue ray. I've only been a slight bit better when it comes to true friendship, because I think I programmed a childhood best friend - my best friend through my life I've known since I was 5 years old - who is also spiritual. And I did find a very spiritual recently awakened friend at work at my last job.

I'll let you know when I have a good answer brother.