10-19-2017, 03:30 AM
Thanks, love, that story made my cry. Lovely.
Yes prayer is very strong, one of the palliative care nurses told me of a situation where relatives were standing around the death bed of someone close to them, and praying for that person to recover. The nurse (who apparently was having the "sight") told them to please stop it because it was time for that person to go and they only made it harder for the dying to let go.
Nice synchronicity btw because I have been thinking about death especially this week. On monday it was 7 month and 7 days since my mother died and I put out the bed linens she died in (never dared that before, they are lovely though with roses) and put them on the bed.
I have a slight cold and it manifested already the day before with wierd burps, like the throat was trying to free itself.
This happened for the first time in 2016, when I had my burnout and contracted the flu from my mum who was hospitalized. I have never felt so low like during that time, I literally had no energy left and I remember one night I was lying in bed, and the throat was acting all frantic and i just said "Lord if I die now no problem, at least I won't have to suffer anymore"
So those symptoms came up again on monday. So I laid down and I said "ok I am going to die now" (I wanted to pull a "Ramana", you know he had a panic attack and then thought he was going to die and pretended to, and it was the death of the ego he experienced)
So I lie there, burping my heart out and then I had to get up and actually vomit some slimy stuff, the body was trying to get rid of (and during the day I had already had lots of bowel movements so I remembered "oh wow ,that is like with mum before she died", it was the same, body is trying to cleanse itself)
I did that for three times and then the vomiting stopped.
But no death esperience either
I just went to sleep and the wierd burps have not reoccurred (well it was the death of the burpety burps then, haha)
So what do we learn from that?
we cannot force some experience, it will happen when it is supposed to (ready when YOU are, I guess)
Another synchronicity, my friend lent me her big bag to take with me to hospital and the bag says "Styx".
That is one of the rivers in the greek underworld.
Yes prayer is very strong, one of the palliative care nurses told me of a situation where relatives were standing around the death bed of someone close to them, and praying for that person to recover. The nurse (who apparently was having the "sight") told them to please stop it because it was time for that person to go and they only made it harder for the dying to let go.
Nice synchronicity btw because I have been thinking about death especially this week. On monday it was 7 month and 7 days since my mother died and I put out the bed linens she died in (never dared that before, they are lovely though with roses) and put them on the bed.
I have a slight cold and it manifested already the day before with wierd burps, like the throat was trying to free itself.
This happened for the first time in 2016, when I had my burnout and contracted the flu from my mum who was hospitalized. I have never felt so low like during that time, I literally had no energy left and I remember one night I was lying in bed, and the throat was acting all frantic and i just said "Lord if I die now no problem, at least I won't have to suffer anymore"
So those symptoms came up again on monday. So I laid down and I said "ok I am going to die now" (I wanted to pull a "Ramana", you know he had a panic attack and then thought he was going to die and pretended to, and it was the death of the ego he experienced)
So I lie there, burping my heart out and then I had to get up and actually vomit some slimy stuff, the body was trying to get rid of (and during the day I had already had lots of bowel movements so I remembered "oh wow ,that is like with mum before she died", it was the same, body is trying to cleanse itself)
I did that for three times and then the vomiting stopped.
But no death esperience either
I just went to sleep and the wierd burps have not reoccurred (well it was the death of the burpety burps then, haha)
So what do we learn from that?
we cannot force some experience, it will happen when it is supposed to (ready when YOU are, I guess)
Another synchronicity, my friend lent me her big bag to take with me to hospital and the bag says "Styx".
That is one of the rivers in the greek underworld.
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