(10-14-2017, 02:53 PM)JayCee Wrote: "Sacrificing beasts", haha Quan! nice Freudian slip.
You know what I think you were able to laugh at the post, because you subconsciously felt that there was no reason to feel sorry me. I mean, if I had written something like omg I will lose my beasts (oops breasts) and so I will go down to the river right now and drown myself bc life sucks anyways, I suppose you would not have laughed (or would you
Xise I have skimmed it before I started posting this thread, but as I said my focus is not primarily on healing right now but more on benefitting from this. I guess it might sound strange but I have absolutely no reason to get rid of the cancer as soon as possible because life is so intense right now, my spirituality has been boosted immensely, I have been able to do stuff I had not been able before ( like switch to healthy eating, it just happens by itself), I am on sick leave (and will be for some time) so that is awesome also bcause it gives me all the time in the world to practice, etc.
There is a strong sense of fate in all this and that this was meant and necessary to happen.
You know I am one of those lazy people, and if there is nothing happening in my life and I think this will go on forever I don't practice my sadhana because , well, "tomorrow" is another day.
But right now I don't know how many tomorrows there will be and it helps me tremendously to be in the moment and live every day like "carpe diem", you know. I am immensely grateful for everything and also for this illness.
I know if I were healed tomorrow there is a possibility I would go back to sitting on the couch, eating chocolates and watching silly soap operas.
I feel that cancer is probably one of the least predictable illnesses and also varies a great deal from individual to individual, like what will help one person will not help another etc.
That is probably also what makes it so interesting. There are people who have done everything "right", have lived very healthy lives and yet get some of the most dastardly cancers. Some of the great sages had cancer, like Ramana Maharshi and Nisagadatta Maharaj.
Other people spend their days chainsmoking and drinking wine and die one day peacefully in their beds.
Some get healed through chemotherapy, others don't. Some are given up by doctors and go home to die and yet recover.
Some get healed at first and then cancer returns a lot stronger and they die.
All the statistics in my mind signify absolutely nothing. As I think it is destiny if it happens, it is part of what was planned.
As Ramana said "if something is supposed to happen, no matter what you do and try to prevent it, you won't be able to, it will happen anyway"
And in that sense, if I or anyone else is supposed to be healed of cancer, it will happen, regardless of the treatment they follow.
My 3year old nephew told me today that he loves me, and that if any time soon I won't have breasts anymore, he will get them because he is me after all.
Isn't that the cutest thing ever?
Lol ooops the freudian slip, I remember seeing the words beasts clearly i actually was suprised when you pointed it out and I looked back that is wasnt! With what your saying yes a lot of sages have had cancer in biographies I have read and come across
I was hesistate to share this been contemplating past few days but i feel i should from synchronisicity of another post that confirmed it. Something that happend in the past qutie a few years agos.. A close family friend I have known all life, allowed cancer to happen to her.. Where it gets interesting was i felt I should pray a lot for her before this happened after finding she did not have much time left, I never reallly prayt in past thinking why would it help! But I did want to now a real compulsion to do it. Usually by my self, a few times with some famly(which I never did before with them so was a big thing for me). Further down the track in time, one night I was sleeping then I had this profound dream/vision she appeared to me as her younger self in a sort of portal like a window everything outside of it black but in this circile she was there and another world seemed there to, infinite peace to it.. and she didnt tlak in words more through an understanding.. but said that she was really thank full for the praying it meant so much to her and helped a lot, I felt a tremendous gratitude. WHich I remeber being suprised as I didnt know if praying had any effect when doing it. She told me she wanted the cancer to happen, that this life was only a speck of sand on a beach to who she really was and all lives she had. Basically everything was fine and perfect for her now. Lastly sHe needed it to happen to open to love, not just for her but for her family too. Her husband was a stressed type of corporate guy, now after he lives on a farm now very at ease and peacefull much different to who was was. Her to children, adults are very loving people both in relations with really caring partners.
After the vision/dreamI woke up in a state of shock almost, lots of sweating, adrenaline rushing and it was late at night it took a lot for me to calm down. I never felt that way before very strange. I saw the time and remembered it. The next day around lunch time I found out from mum that the family friend has gone back home again, left her body. It was the same time I had the vision. Before my mum told me I knew and was not suprised at all that she would tell me this. It was such in inspring event for me, the lightening card in tarot that potentiates the spirit and praying I have a lot of faith in now, especially reading what Carla has talked, she was big on praying I am too now. I couldnt be more thankful for the gift of tha tvision and what family friend she gave to me and how much it has helped me spiritual whenever faith is lacking.