I has cancer

[JayCee]

Thank you infinitely Quan, that was profound!
Is there a buddha angry at silicone implants also?  
I will be operated in two weeks on both breasts, I got the final results yesterday about cancer. But I was really getting angry when the doc mentioned silicone implants as a possibility (because not much will remain of the breasts).
I tried to argue it is artificial stuff that they put into the body but he said they are no problem and could even remain for a lifetime inside.
God I feel my distrust of doctors returning and god, silicone!
on the other hand, if everything is god, then god is also inside silicone implants.
And I am being struck again how the symbolism behind this is so blatant -
the breasts are the moon, astrologically speaking and also the mother. The moon in my birthchart is afflicted by rather heavy aspects, my mother had the same constellation and even the wife that my brother married has it!
It is said that one day those constellations that keep repeating in families have to be resolved.
Someone has to do it.
So the moon is also the ocean right? The tide rises and retreats according to the moon. Ever since I got this diagnosis I have been thinking I should travel to the sea and symbolically give my breasts over to the ocean, before they go the way of all flesh.
And they will operate in a clinic that is called Helios.
Helios the sun god.
I will sacrifice my breasts on the altar of the sun, the sun will eclipse the moon.

That is fine Im glad it came out right then. Thought it didnt make much sense!
We all are buddha self within, or Jesus , christ consiousness or whatever to calll it so given that if you are fine with then its okay    My blessings go to you with the operation of course hope all goes well I do have to say though   I couldnt help but laugh reading your post

The best things are the ones that do not make sense, haha!
I really felt like in some wierd movie, when the doctor put out the box with the silicone things to let me look at them and touch them.
you know, I prefer to be a lovely bio-degradable corpse when I die, not one with plastic parts that won't rot at all. It is good if my posts make you laugh, I was already worrying it might sound depressing and gloomy what with sacrificing breasts to the sun