Law of One or Satan's Harvest?

[Aion]

That's quite the story with some interesting characters that I am well aware of. Thanks for sharing. I understand much better where you're coming from.

That being said, I can't say Im in to mindless violence anymore so not sure how to support you on that one. I guess I wish you luck in getting what you want? I mean, feeding a small population of casual killers seems likely hardly a productive use of your talents but I guess you like what you like. I get it, I do, its a path I just chose not to go down. Im sure thats not really your intent but if the reality of modern gangs is going to be escalated violence then its hard to have sympathy for you if you want to perpetuate that. I know you don't care about sympathy though so thats okay.

I want to help you, I do, but I admit, it seems like you just want power for revenge and then to live out your fetishes. That's perfectly okay, but I don't think I can aid you if that's the case.

I wasn't even just talking about gangs as much as this whole generation. I don't think the world has seen kids like this before.

As far as violence goes... you know, man, if I had a choice, I'd be sitting at a desk drinking a cup of coffee, smoking a fat bowl, and writing and programming computer games. My real desire is to learn and create.

My friends and family members are getting raped and kidnapped and murdered. I'm getting pushed around by thugs who think I'm an easy target because the system wants to keep me in Azkaban over crimes I didn't commit and what they theorize I may or may not do and take away my ability to defend myself.

The system is a bureaucracy. 4th density psychiatrists and police officers aren't any different than the 3rd density ones. "Well, this is really going to reflect on me badly if he does something, so let's keep him on meds and astral restraints forever," is how the doctors think, and the pigs are just as closed-minded, easily-manipulated, brutish, power-abusing, complete-lack-of-compassion-or-rudimentary-critical-thought pieces of s*** they were in third density, and often worse.

Even the enslavers who fashion themselves as compassionate are still just that - their idea of "compassion" being to keep me on a leash, think of me as a dog, and make me perform tricks for them while throwing me an occasional treat while having me neutered to make me more docile.

Both sides have tortured me mercilessly.

I want my magick. I want freedom. I'll have both.

So you tell me... what are my options here? Good ones?

I only know of one. You give me a way out that isn't violence, and I'll take it.

If I play by the rules, the way I see it, I have no chance at all. If I'm smart enough and violent enough to carve out my own section, I might just make it.

The aforementioned groups aren't fucking around. I might not be able to outright win against them, but I'll bet I could at least take a spot for myself and hold it.

The part I bolded above shines through the rest. For the first time you've let me see your true heart and I'm glad, it gives me relief because I've always felt it there. I would like to help you get in to a state of life where you can enjoy that kind of leisure and use your creative self. I don't mean to come across as chastising or anything, I just see so much potential and it is sad to think you might want to use it for nothing but violence. I think that in many ways you've been forced in to the violence though, so I get it. I believe you. I don't think you want to live a violent life if you don't have to.

As for this generation, yeah, y'know, I have noticed it too. Not just gangs but in general so many kids with nothing to live for but the day to day rush. I think there's just so little purpose built in to the system that it pretty much breeds nihilism now.

To be honest? I think your best approach would be to pit your enemies against eachother rather than to do the dirty work yourself. (All is fair in love and war, right?) Sun Tzu - "If you are few, convince them you are many, if you are many, convince them you are few." I'm a tactician by nature, and military strategy is one of my oldest passions.

Secondly, I have certain talents and a knack for dispelling curses and repairing the etheric body. Here's the deal though, if I help you, once the smoke and dust has settled I want you to find that life of peace. Maybe even one day we can make a video game together cause I'm also in to that and I'm always looking for good programmers.

I understand that there might be some flash and fire in the process of freeing yourself from that life, I accept that possibility. That's not the end game though, the goal is to finally be able to settle in your heart, that's my condition. Maybe you will perceive this being no different from the 'psychiatrists' but the fact is I don't care how it impacts me. I care about your finally getting to be at peace in your heart. That is precious to me, not just for you, but for everyone. Ultimately, it's not like I'm going to hold you to anything, I just want to really be clear what my intentions are,