(10-09-2017, 04:30 AM)Coordinate_Apotheosis Wrote: Well, I bid you good luck Dante. I thought a quarantine kept such entities from directly interfering with us with their own technologies including crafts and equipment of a highly sophisticated mannerism. Perhaps I am playing your game, I quit lol
I personally just view these 'entities' as another part of life metaphysically.
I can't say I've ever had a psychic greeting and my own initiation was honestly free of issue. It was my own self that ended it, my own self that didn't believe I was good enough to be a healer.
Whether or not it was a darkness that affected me externally I find is moot. Everything we experience is through our perceptions of our mind, so even if an invisible spirit is putting thoughts in my head, they are my thoughts in my own filter of a mind. Even if it makes me rage, it is my rage, and even if it fills me with a want to kill, it is my murderous desire.
Overall, responsibility of our selves, if not emotional and thought responsibility, is what makes us say 'they made me do it' vs 'I did it because I lost control'.
And I can speak very personally on this matter of lacking self control, if you own up to it, things get better.
I find it a somewhat unfair assessment that the darkness is so encumbered with restrictions while light mainly is free to do as it wills. In many ways I don't believe fair is a proper descriptor of self aware life at all. The planet was fair with life until self aware entities took residence, then 'life isn't fair' became the norm, when it simply is not true.
It's US who are unfair. We who say what is right and wrong then judge and condemn and call it justice are the ironic source of our own miseries.
I hope one day, I won't need to be a part of this 'duality'. It is very disturbing, and very painful to be a part of. No one is right or wrong, we're all just selfish (sto) and selfless (sts) and pretending to be selfless (sto) and selfish (sts) and calling it a spiritual path.
I find the labels tiresome, I find my own labelling tiresome.
If there is a darkness haunting you, Dante, I send it my understanding and love but withhold it too, as if to say, I just want you to know... That's all, good bye now.
Because I'm tired of everything needing to be hurt or repelled or mistreated for a specific outcome. The futility of a true unconditional love is very despairing. If you provide it, it hurts a being, how is unconditional love that hurts another have the means to be called such?
And yet to withhold it and not hurt one is to become hurt.
Doesn't anyone ever look at it all and question how these things can be called such?
God's, monsters, lovers, haters, healers, humans, we're all the same, so why would we partake in such violent love towards each other?
After a while, it kind of loses its meaning. Somedays I almost feel like I'm the only person in this planet that feels so deeply about these 'basic truths' like death being intertwined with survival. Darkness being lost light. Madness being played as sanity.
I don't know how, but I try to believe that underneath it all, there is no light or dark or fullness or emptiness, just... Something that makes experiencing all of this...
Worthwhile.
*holds up a mirror*
Everybody has to find their own way to cope with the nature of physical reality. Just because people don't talk about it nonstop doesn't mean nobody has addressed these issues within themselves.