How do you feel about death, your own, other peoples, in general?

[Coordinate_Apotheosis]

Death.  The power of change.

Ir scares me more than anything, specifically the suffering.

I think its admirable to help people in their final stages transition and make peace with their life while still alive.  I find though that once in it, it'll be more painful for the helper in a strange way.  You'd think death is the ultimate pain, but suicide seems to say otherwise, that death can be a release from pain.  Its those who survive who feel the true pain to the situation.

In a way, the survivor, or in your case, the caregiver will witness things that might shake them. The questions of how and why things are these ways can really disturb a person.  Seeing another suffer into death, a sense of nihilism for the humanity can be touched.  It is the soul that lives on, the human though has gone and most likely is just a bunch of memories to a soul now.

That disturbs me.  I actually have seen death before, I can only feel that there is something very disturbing about how it can occur.  My father's 5th wife died of a massive heart attack literally 10 feet away from me.

I find death has an ounce, and only if an ounce of dignity in it.  To not be lying dead on a street is better, yet I feel there is an odd grossness to people spending their last moments in a bed.  Would one prefer to die to a beautiful scene?  Are they truly comfortable with their final place of life?

For me I'd kill myself inside if I had to watch others suffer and provide them a care that didn't fit my standard of fair.  Most hospice work is overflowing with people, you can't spend all your time with one person, and if you connect with them (which I think but am not sure is discouraged if you're a doctor or nurse) you'll be the one suffering in their wake.

So, I couldn't do it.  Watching so many slowly suffer to death is one kind of hell I don't want to see.

And plus why does so much suffering need to occur in death? Is that really necessary??  Are we such distraught entities that our process back to our true selves need be laden with pain?

I've read that the chakras near death gape wide open before shutting down in death, perhaps it is our slowly leaving a body we so badly wanted to be in, that is the source of all the reasons why pain is so present nearing death...

I find death depressing.  Its a tragedy, not a Divine Comedy.  Those lost are a loss to the world...  They deserve to be remembered in dignity, not their final moments of suffering...