Law of One or Satan's Harvest?

[Aion]

I appreciate your willpower and your desire to get where you want. You are obviously more aware of how you work and your situation better than anyone else and there is the old adage 'know thyself'. I can tell you have clearly been through a lot and yet you still have spirit, that's a good thing.

However, I admit I find your position somewhat peculiar. Do you think that with development of the soul you will still be attached to all those 'wonderful' things? I think you're most inhibited by your own attachments, as you say, maybe you need to get a break from it all. Personally, I haven't found it fruitful to pursue either extreme of ideology or attraction. I've been through the chaos lust. It's fun, there's no doubt. I've also been through the martyr lust. Less fun, but equally compelling. However, the most development of my spirit has happened when I have shaved off both side to see myself raw.

I believe in balance and I think the more you cleave to any extreme identity the more difficult it is to balance. Not impossible, of course, nothing is impossible. This is not a suggestion to abandon yourself, but I guess as a strong believer that we are the Microcosm to the Macrocosmic unity I really believe we contain in ourselves all the extremes and in between. There are two ways to balance. Either to reduce something or to increase something, It's just doing balancing "down here" remember because "up there" you are complete and whole with everything in perfect proportion. Technically you are still perfect, just incarnated on a lower plane of imperfection.

However you still haven't quite answered my question, how would being able to do these things change the state of your life?