Law of One or Satan's Harvest?

[Aion]

What I will say is that you'll be hard-pressed to find anyone on a higher plateau of misery. There is nothing you could do to me to make me feel any worse to any substantial degree.

I empathize with you. I will not say I know your pain or your experience, but I know my own suffering. I am, of course, not interested in making you feel any worse but I am interested in exploring what might be done to help you feel better.

I think that if you're going to go the route of 'getting your power back' as the lingo goes you are better off calling out your demons. However, do this from the perspective of your unified self. There you can come to even terms. Demons and Angels are really the same archetypes manifesting on multiple planes of existence. The same impulse that gives rise to a Sephirothic angel will eventually make it down to produce a Qliphothic demon. It is rather where these two meet in the plane of humanity that the fulcrum of power lies.