I've been having terrible nightmares

[Ashim]

In my most recent dream I failed to save my sister from a guy who had taken her hostage and she died. I went to save her but he had an AK-47 and started shooting at me from afar.. then I took cover and looked for any kind of weapon I could find. then he shot her and escaped. after that buddhist monks were walking down the street. they were mourning her death. and I was emotionally messed up.. don't know why I bowed down to the monks.

and yeah that's another thing, I've been seeing myself as a follower of buddha in my dreams. even though I have no religion while awake.
for example I was being executed in a dream and they asked me to not be silent and uncaring. they said if I complain a bit and nag, they will let me go and I said to them : ''That's not the Buddha's way''

My loved ones keep getting slaughtered in my dreams. and I find myself in dire situations.. constantly fighting, escaping death, ...

So what's up with these dreams?

Goodness that must suck, so much better to face this catalyst in your dreams though verses waking life.
Perhaps if you sit with the dreams catalyst and figure out what you would have had to balance if that was your waking life you will work through this quicker.

That reminded me of this Ra quote. Quite on subject. From 18.5

We have found it to be inappropriate in the extreme to encourage the overcoming of any desires, except to suggest the imagination rather than the carrying out in the physical plane, as you call it, of those desires not consonant with the Law of One; this preserving the primal distortion of free will.