If you activate your green-ray too early, how do you repair the damage?

[JayCee]

Yes the visions and downloads were positive - and very interesting. It all seemed very meaning full at the time but now I cannot recall much, or it gets mixed up with things that occurred later.... I regretted later on that I did not write anything down at the time it occurred.
It came after concentrating on enlightenment - trying to get enlightened. That is why I asked you about the unusual mind practices that you mentioned in your first post. (You might not have seen it, I have edited my last post to ask you that)
I think the intention we set out is important.
One other thing that came to mind reading your post was that I remember I had wondered why my experience did not last. The answer came to me about a year ago, when someone asked Mooji the same thing... they had had wonderful mystical experiences and those faded away.
And Mooji simply replied "it did not last because it was of the mind".
Bam, that hit me like a hammer! Of course!
The word "mind" also shows up quite a lot in your post.
That is the solution.
To get out of the mind and into the heart. A state where there are no thoughts.
Think about it, all the bad things, the fears, the doubts, it is all mind. It is all thoughts.
We see the world not how it is but how the mind works and makes us believe it is.
All the knowledge we acquire, all the books we study, it is not worth much in the end. What can be gained can also be lost.
Find out what is always there, before the thoughts and all that crap comes in, and remain in that state.