Seeing myself as a demon

[Infinite Unity]

Is this something that Orion and other negative influences on earth plant in my head?

I feel like I can kill without anger being a necessity.
I can see how this could help in battlefield. Because recently I had this dream in which I led my fellow soldiers out of a very desperate situation.

I despise the fact that I can be like psychopaths. or military people.. with the dominating eyes and everything.

My advice is to find gratefulness/humility within. In my opinion when one is 'lost' being humble, recognizing all that the creator has gifted you with. Will amazingly turn things around emotionally.