If you activate your green-ray too early, how do you repair the damage?

[Steppingfeet]

Dear Ches,

Austin, Jim, and I just finished offering our humble replies to your question in the podcast. (To be published next week.) I say humble because we don’t have final answers, and our replies are just a few among others, including the excellent replies you’ve received in this thread.
 
Prior to doing the podcast I hadn’t read all the surrounding context you’ve posted in this thread. Now that I’m privy to some of the context, additional thoughts come to mind:
 
(1) Your path is that of the mystic. (I believe most who are attracted to the Law of One have mystical yearnings. It is the essence of the Law of One.) If you study other mystics I believe you will recognize that what you’re going through is not new.
 
Unfortunately I haven’t read as extensively on the subject of mysticism as I would prefer, but the testimony of mystics and analysis about mystics I have read points to chapters on that path which have characteristics in common with yours. Alternating periods of illumination and darkness, faith and doubt, hope and despair. Trust in the perfection of the plan and self-negating, all-consuming, corrosive doubt.
 
This is a good book: https://www.amazon.com/Mysticism-Nature-...ref=sr_1_1
 
As is Dark Night of the Soul by St John of the Cross. (Though it is written through a Christian theological lens that is not always easy to translate.)

 
(2) Doubt can be tortuous. In that state you cut yourself off from potential inspiration, insight, nurture, sustenance, wholeness, well-being, power to act, sense of rightness, etc.
 
This, however, is the place of faith. It is where faith is most needed.
 
There are many ways this faith can be practiced and expressed. Among them are some simple understandings:
 

• You don’t have to figure it out.
  
• You don’t have to have the answers.
  
• You can relax.
  
• You can trust that you are where you need to be.
  
• You needn’t make the light re-appear. You needn’t grasp onto anything solid.
  
• There are no life rafts that will “save” you, per se. (Though who knows what agent of catalyst may appear that precipitates an awakening, or a stepping out from the dark place.)
  
• You needn’t find the One Great Key that will unlock all the doors.
  
• You are where you need to be.
  
• For the lover of clarity and insight, confusion is difficult. Be comfortable with confusion.
  
• Continue the gentle work of knowing and accepting the self, especially accepting the self.
  
• You have strong mental processes capable of all sorts of high-powered analysis. Such analysis is needed and helpful, but it also makes a lot of noise. Quiet down. Be still. Rest in silence.
  
• Imprisoned in the shadows though you may often feel that you are, you have help. Ask and even if the reply is un-perceived, trust that it is there.
  
• There are no mistakes.
  

 
(3) Bringing higher energy into the system will magnify/exacerbate pre-existing blockages and imbalances. For a time one may be able to draw upon that energy, or bring it through from intelligent infinity, in a way that bespeaks the qualities of the illumined state of consciousness (e.g., all is well, I am loved, each is the Creator, there is only service, etc.), but the fault lines in the system will make themselves known.
 
Like others in this thread, I feel that you were vaulted up to a place of spiritual vision for which you were not entirely prepared. (As I say in the podcast, I think you did more than activate the green-ray.) That does not mean that your former experience of spiritual identity was invalid or wrong, just that there were more fundamental imbalances and blockages that require your attention. There is more work to do.
 
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Please take all of that with a grain of salt, discarding anything that doesn’t work for you. And blessings to you upon your journey of seeking.
 
With love/light, Gary
 

6.1  Ra: The purpose of carefully and consciously opening this channel is to serve in a more dependable way, in a more commonplace or usual way, as seen by the distortion complex of the healer. To others there may appear to be miracles. To the one who has carefully opened the door to intelligent infinity this is ordinary; this is commonplace; this is as it should be. The life experience becomes somewhat transformed and the great work goes on.