If you activate your green-ray too early, how do you repair the damage?

[ches]

There's an element that I haven't found in this thread yet, but I think it should definitely be considered. Remember, always, that a human being on planet earth who touches intelligent infinity lights up spacetime in ways that draw the gaze of every dark, negatively polarized entity on and around this planet. To date this has been their world (at least for a very long time...the "official" history of earth is almost entirely service-to-self oriented), and they never let a lightworker here start issuing forth without immediately moving to quell them.

Ches, your experience sounds to me like the dark night of the soul that inevitably follows someone awakening to their Light here. It serves us as souls to submit ourselves to these things on some level, and we can definitely use the catalyst, as this thread has been exploring. But it never hurts to give credit where credit is due, and the "dark night of the soul" is, I believe, always a result of the negatively polarized control mechanisms on this planet clamping down on you to keep you from...well...waging war against them, basically. We are infiltrators after all, inserted deep behind "enemy" lines in order to sabotage the negative way of life on this world and end their reign. That sort of thing doesn't go unnoticed...or unopposed.

The attacks are designed and perpetrated in ways that draw one back down into lower vibration emotions, especially fear. They target our sanity and our beliefs. They most especially target our mission. I find it telling that you refer at times to how you "thought" you were here to save the world, but how you don't think that now. They even have you thinking that you were crazy to believe that in the first place.

But what if you ARE here to save the world from them? Judging by your experiences, it seems to me that THEY believe you are.

This is definitely something I explored in detail when I started thinking that this is possible. I wrote heaps of blog posts about it, but I remember doing this video (and not uploading it at the time). Today I made it unlisted to reply to this post, so we can explore psychosis or something!  This video was about me trying to come to terms with multi-dimensional beings "manipulating me".  So I think I "gave" them power because I was so full of fear? (When I talk about this experience with others, I say that I "made friends" with my demons to make them go away). I think my mind flipped when he started bringing in the incest stuff into our conversations which I could never bring up on my videos because I work with him (and still work with him) and even though co-workers don't know about my channel.. it was a bit risky to post something so .. damaging to my reputation. (I didn't want people to think I was crazy, whilst thinking.. s***, I'm going crazy). I even though these negative-entities were manipulating him to even bring that into his realm, and "bring it into my realm". Like using him to attack me. Or something. My mind definitely flipped. In the video I said that I'm scared but looking back at it now, I was petrified