Financial problems...

[Cainite]

I'm not sure if this forum is right for posting this.. and I know I always post about my problems.. but I have nowhere else to talk.

Every employer I have worked for has been a total jerk.

They just want to use me and not pay me properly and treat me badly until I get fed up and leave!
Then they replace me with another unfortunate fella and do the same thing to him.
The other people in the workplace have always been snakes. they do anything to stop you from making progress. all they do is acting and manipulating..

And I hate interviews.. specially when they ask me to tell them about myself! I don't talk much. this forum is the only place where I talk freely.


I feel very different.. and even look different here. I look like an european (I'm white) and everybody else is brown here in Tehran. so being different makes things harder for me specially because everyone notices it.
I have no connections. I failed to finish university because I went crazy and couldn't leave the house for two years. I can continue now though.

So I have to work for myself at home.. making very little money. I translate eng to persian and persian to eng. It takes much time and payment is very low and doesn't give me hope for future.

I remember this employer who was obsessed with me and told me he wants to take me everywhere and doesnt want me to do anything specific. just sticking around all day. and going to meetings with him.
that was the best job I could get! but I felt like he's dangerous and I actually wanted to do honest work and contribute. so I escaped.

Now the worst thing about all this is other people like my mom making comments about me not succeeding financially.. when I already know I'm a failure in this world.